Monthly Archives: December 2014

2014大事回顧

2014年,我們家庭發生了很多大事,有喜有悲,各人都因而成長了不少.

奶奶病況:
病情一直反覆不定,時好時壞,不斷進出醫院的奶奶,經多次手術及療養,現在穩定康復中,極感恩.

太老爺:
身體每況愈下,11月離我們而去,返回天家,與太奶奶相聚.他是一個極慈悲的老人家,是他教導我隨心而為,做自己喜歡的事,不要為別人而活,喜歡的就多吃,吃不下就別勉強.同樣道理:吃東西如是,生活如是,做人如是.我會緊記教誨,快樂地活出精彩人生.

與太老爺相處的時間不多,但第一次見面,他待我如親孫女一樣,有如我已離世多年的親外公一樣的愛錫我,所以我很尊敬和愛惜他.他的離去,有如再次失去外公一樣的心痛.願他在天家得享安息.

老公的愛犬Wynny:
媽媽由小至大都怕狗,怕到由街頭見到街尾掉頭走.來到美國,首次見老公的2隻愛犬,被嚇怕到跳上梳化尖叫.但相處下去,牠們令媽媽對狗隻完全改觀,由害怕變成接受,由接受變成喜歡,由喜歡變成喜愛,最後更成為2隻狗的主人.去年Dozer離去,今年Wynny也去了狗天堂陪伴好朋友,可以再次一起追逐玩耍了.Wynny,媽媽好掛住你,在天堂繼續好好生活,我愛你.

大公主正式上學:
美國的學校,5歲正式上幼稚園,一年後升第一班(即香港小學一年級),轉眼嘉嘉5歲正式上學啦!
短短幾個月,她學懂了很多東西,每天回家都給我們很多驚喜,學校教的遠多於媽媽想像.上學一個月,她認得很多新詞語,能夠看一大堆新圖書,咬字發音亦進步了很多,朗讀時抑揚頓挫,充滿感情,讀得好好聽,厲害.

二公主重返體操班:
6月的舞蹈匯演後,我們放了一個月暑假,回來後她決定暫停跳舞班,重返體操課.她短短幾個月,進步神速,連升兩級,基本追上了家姐的級別,身手靈活的小朋友.

首次家庭旅行:
七月是晴晴的4歲生日,嘉嘉開學前一個月,媽媽決定來個家庭旅行,地點選了父母相識相愛,一家大細最適合的地點 -迪士尼世界.肥仔爸爸為讓了讓她們有個極愉快的旅程,選了兩間樂園內的高級酒店,每天都預訂了不同餐廳,連最難預約的灰姑娘城堡也成功在小公主生日正日訂了枱,廿四孝爸爸實至名歸.

爸爸一直討厭坐飛機,但為了完滿旅程,豪出去買機票讓小公主們首次乘飛機,還安排專車和司機往返機場,很細心周到,女兒果然是父親的前世情人呢!

他旅行回來後,竟然由討厭旅行(不想乘飛機,因為太多手續和檢查,又很大機會有延誤),變成研究下一次可以帶她們去哪裏旅行或參觀,正在研究road trip的可能性,希望每年都可以去一些短途旅行,到美國的不同城市參觀.小人兒的驚喜笑臉,對爸爸的影響力果然不可小覷.

與外公外婆見面:
小公主的公公婆婆,終於成功取得簽證來美,在姨姨的陪同下與小公主們見面.由於假期有限,她們不能逗留太久,短短9天的相處,大家都很珍惜.婆婆公公要努力學英文,小公主要多學中文,才能好好溝通,因為整天姨姨和媽媽都不停做翻譯,口水都乾呢!

媽媽的事業:
當了全職媽媽6年多(由懷孕開始就沒有工作),儲備了多年的勇氣,終於一鼓作氣致電多個政府部門,看了近百幾頁的法律文件和程序,成功申請了商業牌照和所需文件,成立了小小網店,努力地設計新產品.

開小店一直是媽媽的夢想,做一份自己熱愛的工作是一直不敢奢望的事情.在香港,手仔作當作興趣也會被人嫌棄成為浪費金錢的無聊嗜好,但無奈這一直是我從小喜愛又不能自拔的愛好,夢想有天可以開小店賣自己設計和製造的小東西.但這一直都只是不敢對人說的夢想,從來不敢奢望有天可以願望成真.

感激神的安排,科技的發達,人在美國的機緣,在地球的另一端文化完全相反,媽媽有機會把興趣變成工作的一部分,讓我的潛能和小宇宙盡情發揮,活出真正的我.

這個國家沒有中國人那種以錢為先的事業前途界定,孩子可以學任何真正有興趣的東西,深信行行出狀元,父母對子女要做髮型師,修甲師,汽車維修員,或者醫生,律師和工程師的支持都一樣,最重要是做到自給自足,做得高興,找到自己的專長作為事業,工作沒有貴賤之分.至少,我們一家如是,我所接觸的美國人都有這樣的信念.

感恩在這個陌生國度,所遇到的人與事都是積極正面的為多,即使陌生人也會很友善,絕不吝嗇對別人的讚賞,給予很多正面的支持,令我這個經常自我懷疑又憂慮過多的人,自信心大大提高,這也是我有信心踏出這麼一大步的重要原因.

在這裏,有很多人會真心欣賞別人付出的心機與時間,會欣賞原創和手工製作,而且願意花錢去支持小本經營的網店或小店,讓全職媽媽如我有一個幫補家計,繼續活出自我的機會.

從來沒有想過有一天會離開我最愛的香港,沒有想過有一天我會長期生活在另一個國家.居美近9年,多年前已合資格做公民,但至今仍然不申請的我.一直覺得我是香港人,未能完全接受變成美國人.然而,今年很有可能會考慮申請,生活多年後,我發覺這裏是我家的感覺變得很強烈,這兒的文化與我的性格和信念很配合.

我在香港有很多好朋友,很多快樂回憶,但同時我從未為自己而活過,從未覺得自由自在.從前一直在要求自己達到別人的期望,擔憂別人對我的看法,太顧慮對方的心情,說話前不只是三思,同一句說話會極仔細思索過才說出口.今天,我說話沒有年青時的圓滑得體,變得直接爽快,沒有包裝,沒有轉彎抹角,是就說是,不是就說不是.當沒有好話可說的時候,就甚麼也不說,沒有必要硬著頭皮說一堆沒有意義的廢話.

這一年,我認識真正的自己,學懂了照顧家庭的同時,照顧自己也同樣重要.作為母親和妻子,我的身心健康嚴重影響我照顧家庭的能力,若我不先照顧好自己的身心靈,怎能照顧好一家大小.媽媽們很容易都以家庭和孩子為首,把自己的需要推到最後,往往捱壞了自己,最後整個家庭也受累.現在,我真正學懂放鬆一點,享受與孩子的時間多一點,家務時間表放鬆一點,讓自己和家人都快樂輕鬆一點.

一直對政治冷感(與很多香港人一樣),今年在遠方的我,因為9.28而跟一部分的港人醒覺起來,人生中首次因為擔心自己的城市而心神恍忽,夜不能眠.短短2個星期,體重因而下跌了七磅之多,原來愛一個地方可以極速減肥,擔憂對健康的危害真的不可忽視.香港,我愛你.

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Just some pre-birthday thoughts

A few more days, it will be my birthday and it will be a special one. Not like there will be any crazy celebration or anything, I just really happy to be where I am right now. I feel contained and full of creative energy, eager to learn and dip my toes in different aspects.

I have a happy family, a wonderful and supportive husband, two beautiful and loving daughters, two loyal dogs, living in a comfortable home. All these happened in a very short period of time, way shorter than I could imagine. I never thought I could achieve this much at this early age, this is truly a gift from God, I am so grateful and couldn’t be more lucky.

In the last few months, a lot of good and bad things had happened and affected me and my family. Many happy and important first time events and sadly a last lifetime event for a beloved one.

With all these life events go on, I learned to cherish family and friends at a whole new level, work harder than forever in a very long time. I saw a light in me that hadn’t been burning started a little spark, it has been flickering and growing stronger.

Since motherhood, I have learned so much and the girls inspired me everyday. The ways they see the world and the trust and confidence they have in me, gave me the courage to start a new chapter in my life and overcame the fear which was the greatest weakness within my own mind.

Being a mother, I feel like nothing in this world could be more challenging and nerve wrecking. When they were infants, it was their lives and well beings all in your hands. As they grew, it is a whole new level of mental, physical, academical, emotional challenges. Some lucky days they are angels and sweet hearts, however, the majority of days feel more like fighting with at least one little handful. At the same time, moms have to control their own emotions and make sure everyone are sane and things are under control inside their households.

I used to be multitasking in all my old jobs, none of them quite measured up to this one. I love this no paid but somehow the best job in the world. There is nothing more fulfilling than watching your children grow and change everyday. I learn more about myself, my spouse through them in a daily basis. They taught me so many things in such a short time that I am amazed with the super mom power hidden in every woman.

I’m just too happy and glad to have you, my loyal readers and friends to be here to share my little crazy thoughts of the night before my birthday. I hope to update more often in the future, share more recipes, crafts and everyday life in this little corner of mine.

Wish you all a happy holiday. Stay warm and remember to tell your loved one how much you love them in a daily basis.

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